Maxwell's favorite toy

Maxwell having fun with Mama!

I "pity" the fool...

Just found out that my last post has a lot more validity than I ever imagined. Wow! I'm Paul's Yoko Ono. I think that will be our Halloween costumes.

Peace and Love

~From the "generally NOT nice person"

Let it be resolved

I've always identified with Elphaba, the misunderstood witch from Wicked. I wanted to name Madelyn Elphaba but Paul wouldn't let me. If you've ever read the book OR watched the musical you would easily see how I make this connection. Elphaba has strong opinions and often times gets herself into trouble because of being herself. There is a line from the song Defying Gravity in the musical that I love...

"Too long I've been afraid of losing love I guess I've lost. Well, if that's love it comes at much too high a cost"

I'm tired of trying so damn hard. I really am. Ever since college it seems I'm running around trying to appease other people and STILL not doing enough. I've put up with too much even if it seems to those around me I haven't put up with enough. Well here is a notice: I. AM. DONE. I'm done going to bat for people who will not do the same for me. I've caused shit in my life to TRY to better the lives around me and for what? FOR WHAT? Not a damn thing.

"So be it then, I'm wicked through and through. I promise no good deed will I attempt to do again. Ever again."

Poor Paul, he is stuck with a bitch like me. Right? That's what everyone's been thinking for almost 4 years now. And if Paul says anything different it's because I've made him, right? I've made Paul do lots of things....get married, leave the catholic church, not talk to family members, graduate early, have kids....yep, it's all me making Paul do those things.