We told!

We told my family and Paul's family this weekend. Everyone was happy. I was especially happy to not have to hide it anymore. I was VERY happy my sister was okay with all of this. I was worried because I really didn't think she wanted us to be pregnant at the same time. And, we weren't really trying so it was a surprise for everyone. I am now 5 weeks and trying really hard to not give into my cravings. I do not want to gain loads of weight again like I did with Madelyn. I just lost all that weight and now I am pregnant again! Everything is going well. Still pretty tired but not as bad as last time. Thank God for no sickness, I hated that. I'm going to try to talk my sister into blogging with me.

4 weeks

I am 4 weeks pregnant but have only known for 1 week. I still haven't told my family yet. Can't seem to find the right time. I'm not too tired and haven't really been sick, aside from the episode Monday morning. Have a job offer for teaching next year and not sure if I am going to take it. It's about a 30 minute commute and with gas the way it is and all the doctor's appointments I am about to have, I'd rather find something in Tulsa. Well, it's that or I am scared shitless. I still don't feel like I have found my place in the world and every time I get close, something throws me off. Life was easier in the past, even though I didn't think it was.

The Beginning

I've gone down this road before. Not to say none of it was enjoyable, but for the most part I was miserable. The thought of having to give up my body, mind, life...well, it sucks. However, I am hopeful this time will be different. It is starting out much the same; no money, no job, not planned. But still, it might be different. Still haven't told a lot of people yet, especially my family. They are basking in the glory of another addition.

Still looking for a job. Seems once you graduate college it would be easy to find a job. This is not the case for BA majors such as myself. I have an interview tomorrow and a baby growing inside me.